Currently // Vol: 20

Me and Ali and Me and Tim all dolled up before the Ambassador Awards 

Some of the work family having a good old time!

I broke out the candles and the house smells so lovely // We put up the tree! Also.....Dinosaur lights!! 

T and I went for dinner at my fav place in town // I got sad because I didn't pass my driving test

Family walks in the woods are the best // Dad loved his birthday cake I made 
Loving: Christmas cooking! I have baked so many cookies recently it's insane! I think I have over 100 cookies in the house at the moment. I'm nearly done though, so soon I'll have all my little Chriatmas cookie packages for people!!

Hating: This awfully shitty weather. Like seriously, why is the world so wet and windy! I don't think we've had a day in the last 2 weeks where it hasn't rained, and the wind has been hurricane force! I was actually scared for my life the other day, but more for the rabbits life, poor little fella!!

Thinking about: What I'm doing after I get back from New Zealand. I'm by no means wishing the time away, but I can finally see where I'm heading job wise and it's exciting, so I'm looking forward to getting stuck into that. But first....HOLIDAY!


Listening to: Right this second....some classical piano music on the radio at work. In general....Judah and the Lion.

Eating: Huomous sandwich for my lunch (I'm writing this on my lunch break FYI) and non of the Christmas Cookies I've been baking!! *Wipes crumbs from her lap*

Reading: Actually nothing for once! Im still reading the Wildwoman book but Iv left it alone for a few weeks to let the bit Iv read sink in, so yeah, nothing. Just a few magazines and Internet articals. It actually feels nice not reading for a bit.

Wishing: That Christmas was longer so I have more time with my family and T before I go but also that it would hurry up so I can go....it's a mixed bag of emotions goin on in here.


Adventure Time // Almost There

Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god. OMG!

Its 29 days till I go to New Zealand! I am. FREAKING. OUT.

How the hell did it get here so fast?! I wasn't even going a few minutes ago. It wasn't even a thought in my mind, how is it now?! I am so unbelievably petrified and excited at the same time haha. I know I can do this. I know I can get on that plane, fly half way around the world and have a freakin amazing time. I don't know if I can get on that plane and fly half way around the world away from all my family and friends....that is another matter entirely. I keep telling myself that its okay because of Skype/Facetime, its easy to txt abroad now and Snapchat and Facebook and all that stuff, but I cant just go for a coffee with my mum and tell her about all my crazy adventures. I cant just cuddle on the sofa with T and watch a movie or share my experiences with him. I cant pick Max up and give him a big old squeeze and sloppy kiss. I cant go round to my Nanas and chat for hours and hours about everything and nothing. And I think that is what scares me the most.

I literally can not wait to be with Hollie again. A year is way to long to go with out seeing a best friend, especially when we haven't spent more than a week apart in over 10 years (apart from my 3 month stint in Murica), but how is that gonna feel when I haven't seen anyone else in a year?! Assuming I stay that long (which I hope I do) I won't of seen, in person: Tim, Mum, Dad, Matt, Sarah, Max, Nana, Meg, Katie, Beth and Ali. Thats insane! How do you function when you don't see any of the people that get you through the day?! I know I'm being totes over dramatic here, but when your baking cakes for 8 hours straight your mind tends to wander.

Now, Im quite good at being away from people. Hollie used to say I was like a dog, I didn't realised I missed people until I saw them again, which is totally true. If social media and mobile phones weren't like they are today, I would be able to totally push the feeling of missing someone to the back of my brain and just get on with what ever I was doing until I got home and saw them again, then Id ball my eyes out and hug them forever more. But now I cant 'forget' because its there all the time on FB and FaceTime ect, I don't think I will be able to do that? It was difficult in Murica the first time, I found myself missing everyone all the time, after seeing them do things without me back home, so I think this will be even harder, especially with Max growing so much and Nana now on Facebook, its gonna be weird and a lot of getting used to!

But any way, I digress. WOOOOOH, NEW ZEALAND! I haven't done hardly anything to get ready for it haha! I've paid my flights off, so I'm definitely going. I haven't got insurance yet, I have got my bus pass tour ticket thing, I haven't started packing although I have set a few things aside in the maybe pile. I've bout a few travel essentials and things like that, I haven't changed my money yet or sorted anything like that out. I haven't saved nearly as much as I thought I would (whoops!) but I am so ready! I'm going to start pre-packing (yes thats right, I pre-pack!) this week on my day off, and make sure I've got all the things like pass ports and e-tickets.

I cant wait to get out there and explore a new place, see the mountains again....'I want to see mountains again, Gandalf, mountains, and then find somewhere where I can rest. In peace and quiet, without a lot of relatives prying around, and a string of confounded visitors hanging on the bell. I might find somewhere where I can finish my book. I have thought of a nice ending for it: and he lived happily ever after to the end of his days.'....Sorry! I went all Tolkien on you then, but its pretty apt for how I feel about this trip haha!

If anyone has any recommendations for places to visit, eat, drink, walk, hike, skydive, anything! let me know down below!