Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god. OMG!
Its 29 days till I go to New Zealand! I am. FREAKING. OUT.
How the hell did it get here so fast?! I wasn't even going a few minutes ago. It wasn't even a thought in my mind, how is it now?! I am so unbelievably petrified and excited at the same time haha. I know I can do this. I know I can get on that plane, fly half way around the world and have a freakin amazing time. I don't know if I can get on that plane and fly half way around the world away from all my family and friends....that is another matter entirely. I keep telling myself that its okay because of Skype/Facetime, its easy to txt abroad now and Snapchat and Facebook and all that stuff, but I cant just go for a coffee with my mum and tell her about all my crazy adventures. I cant just cuddle on the sofa with T and watch a movie or share my experiences with him. I cant pick Max up and give him a big old squeeze and sloppy kiss. I cant go round to my Nanas and chat for hours and hours about everything and nothing. And I think that is what scares me the most.
I literally can not wait to be with Hollie again. A year is way to long to go with out seeing a best friend, especially when we haven't spent more than a week apart in over 10 years (apart from my 3 month stint in Murica), but how is that gonna feel when I haven't seen anyone else in a year?! Assuming I stay that long (which I hope I do) I won't of seen, in person: Tim, Mum, Dad, Matt, Sarah, Max, Nana, Meg, Katie, Beth and Ali. Thats insane! How do you function when you don't see any of the people that get you through the day?! I know I'm being totes over dramatic here, but when your baking cakes for 8 hours straight your mind tends to wander.
Now, Im quite good at being away from people. Hollie used to say I was like a dog, I didn't realised I missed people until I saw them again, which is totally true. If social media and mobile phones weren't like they are today, I would be able to totally push the feeling of missing someone to the back of my brain and just get on with what ever I was doing until I got home and saw them again, then Id ball my eyes out and hug them forever more. But now I cant 'forget' because its there all the time on FB and FaceTime ect, I don't think I will be able to do that? It was difficult in Murica the first time, I found myself missing everyone all the time, after seeing them do things without me back home, so I think this will be even harder, especially with Max growing so much and Nana now on Facebook, its gonna be weird and a lot of getting used to!
But any way, I digress. WOOOOOH, NEW ZEALAND! I haven't done hardly anything to get ready for it haha! I've paid my flights off, so I'm definitely going. I haven't got insurance yet, I have got my bus pass tour ticket thing, I haven't started packing although I have set a few things aside in the maybe pile. I've bout a few travel essentials and things like that, I haven't changed my money yet or sorted anything like that out. I haven't saved nearly as much as I thought I would (whoops!) but I am so ready! I'm going to start pre-packing (yes thats right, I pre-pack!) this week on my day off, and make sure I've got all the things like pass ports and e-tickets.
I cant wait to get out there and explore a new place, see the mountains again....'I want to see mountains again, Gandalf, mountains, and then find somewhere where I can rest. In peace and quiet, without a lot of relatives prying around, and a string of confounded visitors hanging on the bell. I might find somewhere where I can finish my book. I have thought of a nice ending for it: and he lived happily ever after to the end of his days.'....Sorry! I went all Tolkien on you then, but its pretty apt for how I feel about this trip haha!
If anyone has any recommendations for places to visit, eat, drink, walk, hike, skydive, anything! let me know down below!