Jukebox//Vol 1: If Then

Jukebox is my new feature where I share some of my favourite songs, whether its because I just like the lyrics, the beat, the video or it has some deep personal meaning to my life. I believe music can affect our lives in such a big way, and especially for me, music has helped me though some really tough times and also some of my happiest. I want this feature to be real and uncensored. Maybe that means I'll share funny/embarrassing stories about certain songs or open my self up and share some tuff stuff. This blog has always been real, and I appreciate everyone who respects that.

If Then by General Ghost is actually a fairly new song that has quickly worked its way on to my 'repeat list.' It's a really simple song but I just love the lyrics. It's now become one of my motivational songs that I stick on when I need something to get me off my butt. It say's 'come on Holly! get of your bottom and just give it ago!' and that's what I need most of the time. I love the music, it make me think of that bit in the film when the main character realizes what they need to do and they just run. It makes me want to do that. Oh, I think I need some cheese? Stick that song on and I'll run to the shop and get that cheese! Oh, I left my phone on the bus and its driving away! Stick the song on, I will run after that bus until it gets to the end of the line. I've got to make a huge decision that could possible change the whole course of my life! Stick on the song and BOOM, decision made.

I love the line:

'I'd rather fail every time, Then to know I'd never tried, Never lived, never died, Just for an easy life.'

It's become a sort of motto for me. I've always been afraid of failure and looking like an idiot for not being able to do something, so I would just not do it. But I've realized that that is a stupid way of thinking. I would hate to get to the end of my life and think 'man, I did nothing with my life, I was just too scared.' Being scared is hard. So much other shit comes with being scared. Paranoia, shyness, laziness, depression, anxiety, I've had it all. It was just easier to not be scared and do nothing. But that it not a life I want to live. It's not fun, its a waist and  its so sad. I know we have to go through all that stuff to learn and to grow and become who we want to be, but in the end we have to choose to either carry on being scared and not trying or to go for it and live. Which is equally as scary but an exciting scary! Since I've chosen to not be scared anymore, I have done so much stuff that I never dreamed id do. I went to America for three months, I went to Uni, I found the love of my life and its so exciting!  I would definitely pick failing over not trying. If I fail, I learn. If I don't try, I stay stuck where I am. 

When of think of the future and all the possibilities before me, I'm not gonna lie, my knees start to shake and my heart starts pounding. I just don't understand how people do it!? How in the world do you leave home and buy a house? What are bills? What if the electricity goes? How do I get a proper job? How do I even choose what I want to do with my life? How do you raise another human being? What do you do when you need to do tax's? Do I have to start watching the news? How do you even be a grown up?! It's just mind boggling. But you know what, I stick this song on and it all of a sudden doesn't seem as impossible anymore. I can do it, I can try and I'll try my damn hardest to get it right, but if I don't its no biggie. I will learn and I will grow, and I'll try again.

Music is for sharing. If you do a Jukebox post: Link it though, I would love to read about the music that has inspired you and that get you moving. Maybe I'll find a few new jems too!

Artist: General Ghost Video: Wave Of Good Noise

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