8.7.12

Good Bye Childhood

Hehehe! SO....right now! This very second I will be watching the F1 guys zooming round the rack at 180mph probably sopping wet and shouting for Jenson Button to get his ass in gear and drive!! Unless he's winning in which case i'll be screaming my ass off and probably embarrassing my dad a lot :D

While I'm otherwise occupied I thought I'd share my final day at Uni. For the last three years I have been studying Fine Art at Uclan in Preston. Last week I graduated with 2:2 and officially finished University and entered the 'Big Wide World.' For the last three years I have had, the best, the worst and the strangest time of my life. I can't say I have made many friends and I cant say that I put my all into my work. I can't say that I made the right choice going to University and I can't say that I gained anything from it. But I can say that I would do it all again if I could. I would probably do a different course, now that I know what I want to do with my life, and I would work harder and make sure that I didn't let anyone tell me that I wasn't worth it and  I would believe in my work more, but I would keep everything else the same.

For the last two years my best friend and I have lived together in the same flat. We have had our ups and downs and we have fought and fallen out, laughed and cried and made the most out of a situation that we both weren't sure of. I have loved being able to spend that time with her watching movies, geeking out on star trek and stargate, pigging out on endless snacks and junk food, playing sword fights, drunkenly dancing at all hours to Disney and slowly realizing what we want in life and being excited for each other and helping each other to get to where we want to be. I know we both feel really sad that these days are over and that was probably the last time we could do all those things together, because now, we are adults. We have responsibilities and a future to start. I know we will always be friends and those late night DVD nights will always happen but it wont be the same as just crossing the hall and knocking on the door. It will have to be planned and things will get in the way. Nothing will be as easy as it was the last 2 years.

For the past year, I have learnt so much about myself and who I am. I have watched my self grow and change into who I am now and It. Is. Weird. Weird to remember what I wanted back then and know what I want now and to see how completely different it is. At the start of Uni I wanted to be a teacher/children's worker, I wanted  to leave Uni get a house and start my family as soon as I could, and I remember wanting that so badly it hurt. And now, I still want that but not any time soon!! I want to get a flat with my friends, I want to travel, I want to get my shop up and running, I want to have fun, visit friends in far off places and just live life, not wanting the next thing but being happy in what I have now. And all these past three years boiled down to this empty room. I have lived in this room for two years. This place was home and I had lots of fun in this room. It's strange to me that this summer someone else will live here and will create their own memories. Will they have as much fun as I did? Will they love the time there as much as I did? Will they have there best friend to share it with them?

I'm so grateful for the opportunity to go to University but I am glad it's over. I know if you've followed me from the beginning you'll know how much I have ranted about it here and how much I have loathed it at times ! But at the end of the day, if I hadn't done it I wouldn't be the person I am now and I wouldn't be where I am now and for that I am so thankful.

So on to the next thing!!.... AMERICA!

6 comments:

  1. This is a beautiful country despite the current economic and political climate. I hope you road trip too: it's the BEST way to see this country.

    Definitely get some pizza in Chicago if you're able, and check out the nerd scene in LA! It's a shame you'll miss Comic Con... hell, it's a shame I'll miss Comic Con. Anyway, congrats on graduating! What does 2:2 mean?

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    1. awww Id love to go to Comic Con!! One day I will coem over especilly for it :P erm Im not sure what your equivilent is...but its a middle-ish mark :)

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  2. Cool! You're coming to America? What part? For work or just for a visit?

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    1. Im visiting a friend in Kentucky then hopefully doing a little traveling around and seeing pretty much anyhting I can haha!

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  3. I just found your blog, and was drawn to it by the title! I love all those things :)
    I'm following!
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  4. aww how wonderful - congrats girl - i'm so glad that you are having a good time and discovering yourself xoo

    C

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