The final episode of Glee is next week. I know that's not a massive thing but Glee started when I started University, and now three years later it is ending when I do too (this cast anyway) It is a massive thing to get my head around and I am so glad it's over. But. I am also deeply sad about it. I have spent the last 21 years of my life in some form of education and I've always had something to do next. After junior school there was high school, after high school there was college and after college there was University. But now there is nothing. There is nothing next. A job? A house? Marriage? Family? Non of that is concrete and it is frightening, but its also exciting. I am so looking forward to the future and what comes next and actually, I think I quite like not knowing what comes next. I will miss this part of my life though. The not having any worries, no mortgage, no job, no 'other person'. I will miss being able to get up in the afternoon and go to bed in the morning. I will miss watching back to back episodes of Stargate all day 'just because I can'. I will miss the friends I have made and the people who have come into my life in the last few years. Sure I'll probably see them again, but it will never be like this. It will never be this easy again and I have taken that for granted.
I know I have quite a few younger readers (hi!) and I just want to take this time to tell you to enjoy yourself. Maybe your at school/college or starting Uni, what ever, my advise is the same. Enjoy yourself. Because before you know it 3 years have gone and then there is nothing next. I'm not saying that to scare you or make you think about what you want to do after Uni or whatever, I'm saying it so you will cherish those times you got up at 4 in the afternoon, skipped a lecture to go the park when it's sunny, or watch T.V in your P.J's with your best friend all day, because soon those days will be over and I want you all to be able to look back on those days and know that above all you had the best time you could of possibly had.
So Glee's final episode is kinda the mark of the end for me. I watched the third and second to last episodes today and I was balling my eyes out. I could feel it in the pit of my stomach, the beginning of the end. I love watching T.V shows and films set in high school (its a guilty pleasure) and I've always wondered what it would feel like to graduate and go through those emotions that they do. It feels exactly as I imagined. Sad, happy, scary, exciting, confusing, terrifying and awesome all at the same time. I have butterflies in my belly and I feel like I'm about to burst out crying at any second. I don't want to go to class because I'm scared if I see my friends and we talk about 'the end' I'll start balling and they'll laugh. I know at graduation when everyone says good bye I'm gonna cry. I just know it. So with that being said I just want to share some memories of my last 3 years. All in all, they were pretty good.