When I was in Year R my teacher asked the class what we all wanted to be when we grew up. I said I wanted to be a Swan. Yep. That's right. When everyone answered 'Princess,' 'Fireman,' Pop star,' I said Swan (I even drew a little picture). The teacher said 'don't be silly, you cant turn into a swan, pick something else.' But I didn't want to be anything else. I wanted to be a swan! So I carried on drawing and colouring my perfect little swan. 17 years later, I still want to be that swan, maybe not in the physical sense, but I have never lost the desire to be something so much more than I am. I'm not saying that I am this strong person that never lets anything get me down and nothing bothers me. Quite the opposite! I have come so close to loosing myself in the 'norm' so many times, but there has always been a little voice in my head that told me I was better than the bullies, better than the people who told me no.
I think that many people start off with that ambition to be all that they can be, but they let teachers, parents, friends, strangers in the street squash it down till its tiny little embers right down at the bottom of their heart. Lost and forgotten, just a distant memory, a childish dream. They get over run with life, getting a 'proper job,' maybe they were bullied and now all they want is to desperately fit in, somewhere. They ignore the little voice, and start to listen to world instead. The world that tells us to sell ourselves out to make loads of money. To buy certain things because were ugly with out it or out lives just aren't complete unless we have it.
But what if we were all swans? If we all held on to the dreams that we had when we were younger, or nourished them and helped them grow into something more, imagine how much happier we all would be!! We'd have a million more Pop Stars and Astronauts that's for sure! But even on a small scale. I know that I will probably never become a Animal Photographer/Conservationist/Documentary Maker. 1. because I'm not that handy with a camera, 2. The thought of being on telly gives me the heebie jeebies! and 3. Even though I love animals, I think if I came face to face with a lion I would run a mile! But that doesn't mean I have lost my dream. I have never wanted a 9-5 desk job. EVER! And I don't plan on getting one. I get snarked at told I'm being ridiculous rather a lot but so what! I have a different dream which I fully intend to pursue, and I bet if you asked any person working at a desk, that would not be their first choice either.
I guess what I'm trying to say (and this is just my opinion, and something that has been on my heart for some time) that I wish people would hold on to their dreams. I wish that people would do what they love to do instead of selling themselves short. You only get one shot at life, what is the point in wasting it doing something that doesn't make you happy!?